Do I Have an Alcohol Problem?
Nov 01, 2022
I wake up in a panic
No desire to start my day
Thinking of last night
Oh God, what did I say?
Do I have an alcohol problem?
I chug a glass of water
On the table beside my bed
I recognize hangover symptoms
Starting with
My pounding head.
Do I have an alcohol problem?
I head into the bathroom
My system is not right
At one glance in the mirror
I hate the ugly sight.
Do I have an alcohol problem?
I head downstairs for coffee.
Not sure I can stand the taste.
My mouth, an awful feeling,
As if I’ve eaten paste.
Do I have an alcohol problem?
I start to make kid lunches
Throwing stuff into bags,
Seeing the mess of the night before
Feeling like a nag.
Do I have an alcohol problem?
I rush the kids out the door,
Scared to death of what they think,
Quick try to cover up myself
By cleaning at the sink.
Do I have an alcohol problem?
It’s really hard to focus
Oh Lord, I hate my job,
I can’t look at my computer,
I am holding back a sob.
Do I have an alcohol problem?
Now it’s time for lunch,
I need to treat myself right
Fast food to fill my belly
Erase the drinks from last night.
Do I have an alcohol problem?
Ok now my tummy’s full
The headache starts to go
Now I am so tired
My mood is dipping low.
Do I have an alcohol problem?
I’ll ignore my work ahead
Head to bed to catch some rest
That way when the kids come home
For sure, I’ll be my best.
Do I have an alcohol problem?
Oh crap! The kids are here,
I am not ready to give them a greeting
I hate myself so much right now,
Kids grow and time is fleeting.
Do I have an alcohol problem?
I slap a smile on my face,
I love my kids the most
I’ll start to make dinner for them
As for me, I’ll just have toast.
Do I have an alcohol problem?
It’s almost evening now
Long night, oh what a bore!
I’ll do the carpool drop off
Then grab wine from convenience store
Do I have an alcohol problem?
I race home to open the bottle
My heart flame starts to burn
A quick call to my sweet spouse
Remind him about pick up, it’s his turn.
Do I have an alcohol problem?
As I uncork the bottle
Sweet relief rushes over me
The first sip satisfaction
Finally, I can just be me.
Do I have an alcohol problem?
My gosh this wine is great
My edges blurred and good.
I fall into euphoria
My mind is understood.
Do I have an alcohol problem?
Another glass or two or more
It’s almost to the end
It’s shocking how fast it goes
My rules, I’ll have to bend.
Do I have an alcohol problem?
If I leave now I’ll be back in time
With a new bottle in hand
I am feeling oh so good right now
My family won’t understand.
Do I have an alcohol problem?
I’ll just keep drinking this drink
And hope and pray for the best
When my family bounces through the door
They can see, I am a mess.
Do I have an alcohol problem?
That’s fine, they can go upstairs.
Time for bed anyway.
I’m so mad they are ungrateful
For all I did today.
Do I have an alcohol problem?
Hallelujah I am alone.
On the couch now with my drink.
Oh God I am so lonely,
Who to call? What will they think?
Do I have an alcohol problem?
I dial a few friends, no one answers,
No one cares.
I actually hate everyone
Into the darkness I sit and stare.
Do I have an alcohol problem?
One more drink and I’ll head up
To bed and call it a day.
Oh my God this wine is gone
I'll throw the evidence away.
Do I have an alcohol problem?
I stumble up the stairs
To my family already asleep
Oh no, now I am so sad,
I fall down and start to weep.
Do I have an alcohol problem?
I throw myself into bed
It's the best that I can do
I’ll try again tomorrow
Maybe quit, but I don’t want to.
Do I have an alcohol problem?
A rerun this morning
A repeat again today
You’ve heard this all before
For decades I will say…
I wake up in a panic
No desire to start my day
Thinking of last night
Oh God, what did I say?
Do I have an alcohol problem?
I have an alcohol problem
It’s alright and it’s ok.
I can be honest, get some help,
I’ll start with just today.
I do not know what’s ahead
But I can’t go on this way.
I’ll start and try again
Terrified of what they’ll say.
One foot in front of the other
I could use a little love
Fall to my knees in final surrender
Ask for help from heaven above.
Just one day at a time
I am doing this just fine
Reclaim the life that I love
It’s me and it’s all mine.
The lessons that I learn from this
Lead me back to me
Thank God for my alcohol problem
For the awakening I see.
Do I have an alcohol problem?
Yes and it's no more.
I was able to move past it and return back to my core.
